sleep
hate it when it has to happen
embrace it when the clock is ticking
the world's rhythm is out of my step
every day I wake behind
and every night I fight my bed
so much commitment to the outside
so little time for synthesis
I wriggle and writhe as sleep tries to take me
evading its seductive hand
desperately searching...filling the chasm
of questions needing answers
truth falling like pebbles and rocks and sand
it's all so much to absorb
re-calibrating
reconciling
truly taking it all in
knowing what can pass through the sacred gates of the heart
and enter into your rich kingdom of thought
believe for a moment as you believe
comfortable where you give in
where you find peace
and ease in this troubled place
filled with shattered potentials
broken hearts and
broken dreams and
broken spirits leading to
broken lives
but just beyond the horizon
better waits to be seized by those
willing and able to trek
just a little...further
bit by bit
reaching to the stars
just beyond the brink
shoving all the world aside
mind's eyes can see
spirit's ears can hear
heart's hands can feel
love can be found where peace exists
but someone has to be worth the leap
of faith
and trust
and kindness
if I were to unleash the love I have upon this world
and have it gladly be accepted
not squirmed away from
or peered at warily
or dismissed as a simple crush
my still waters run deep
no currents for leagues but a tumultuous monsoon at it's uttermost
I fear that being seen.
That over anything else
if someone would follow me
take my hand out of pure curiosity
we would swim down to sit
on the floors of ocean me
I would only turn and shrug
and admit my own surprise
at my thoughts
and my deeds
and my daily routine
seeing all that lies beneath
when we see our own souls
all beauty and terror as one
glamorous distortion in its elegant disgrace
wonderful and terrible we are
creative destruction
dissonant harmonies
capable of infinite anything
it is then that only one question matters
only one remains
and strain to remember
hold to the answer with all you have
for you will lose sight of it
most every single moment of every single day
like water through your hands
sands
through
your fingers
a warm breeze across your face
perfection and harmony
every atom aligned
all truly right in the world
a moment in nature designed by those like me for my kind
no wonder we break and fall and hurt and cry
it hardly ever seems our turn
the moment where all the world shines
sparkles to life in colors we've never seen
so infrequent are our visits to this place
reason snuffs it out
bill$ car$ customer$ appointment$ job$ thing$
nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag
realize what relation$hips you’re in
needs mean money and
money means work and
work means time
money perpetuates the heart beat of this town
the thing that brings us together is no longer need
just want
and tons to spare
time equates to currency
our days numbered with dollar signs
credit lines
401K's and that next raise
what we can get instead of what's right before us
behind us and every where in between
or, dare I say it?
all the things money can’t bring
a life waiting...
to
be
siezed